~wAtErMeLoN-HeAd~

ORD LOH...~

2009-01-06T05:17:00.000+08:00

MACAM PAHAM

So now I duno, whether to relax a while after "ORD" or before ORD, find another job..

Hmmmmmm...

Pergi Jauh Jauh

2009-01-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

Another fall.

Months of seeking to the right path, finally, God showed many many answers. Yes, its not the first time, but many times eversince the long term relationship. All he said since last time was "Eh camne u tahu eh..boleh baca eh u.." Many times.

Kau ingat aku bomoh nak baca baca.

Well, maybe u people might know who am I talking about. How much I sacrifice myself and my emotions, and being patient with this person. He hurt me mentally, emotionally, and well...physically too.

Like what he said he is changing, and all a changed person..after our 5 years of relationship. And ya, all he want is to rebuild all the relationship back, to get it rekindled. Its not easy, but effort and communication is all we need.

Tell me how to make an effort when i received a call from him "Bole tolong ajar i nak pakai email? bole tolong a little bit about my resume? bole tolong camne nak applykan sekolah? boleh tolong bla bla bla bla." Its like, "FAZLYN, TOLONG." Ya he called me Fazlyn.

After he got the help from me, hilang. Then mintak tolong. Hilang.

Nampaksah tak ikhlas nak rebuild balik tu relationship kan?

Apa ingat aku ni bodoh.

"Handphone I rosak, nanti nak jumpa takleh call u tau."

Few days later I asked him, "Handphone u tak rosak kan? cuma u tak bayar bill kan?"

He said: "Hehe. Ak ah, lum bayar bill."

Kerana selalu tipu aku, i got my answers right without checking here and there. It just flash to my mind.

After that friendster thingy I have found, I dun tink he is really sincere, coz he is even denying..!

Muhammad Imran = Champion in Denying.

No point of saying all these. Coz he's somebody else with somebody else. U get wat I mean?

Monday blues, and wish for miracle could happen

2009-01-05T05:05:00.000+08:00

Since It is monday blues, 4 people are down again.

Hurhurhur.

Well, duno wats the reason, maybe they are on leave or MC.

But at this point of time, i wished miracle would happen to MOE to resolve all problems that users are facing. Wished that they would make things simpler for users.

Haiz.

School

2009-01-03T05:21:00.001+08:00

Abg n Adik goes to school. First day yesterday.

I watched their video when they are dismissed from class.

Salam cheacher, then said "ESOK DATANG LAGIIII"

WAAAAAKAKAKAKAKAKA.

Abang in orange, Adik in blue

School

2009-01-03T05:21:00.000+08:00

2 years from now

2009-01-02T16:35:00.000+08:00

I would want to see myself 2 years from now.

2 years ago I was having my last 2 months of school.

2 years from now i will be having my last few wat?

GRRRR.

Its scary.

And its 1 and a half more years b4 my bro become a husband!

OMG. He will be a husband at the age of 25?

Seeeeeesh.

I wanna run away from his wedding plans. If only I become a TAI TAI, I will be greatful, beautiful, not bloody fool to be involved in his wedding. Aku la salah satu harapan..

*looking around for godmothers who wishes to have me to be her daughter*

"Mak, masak apa nari? Nak suap..!" WAAAAKAKAKAKAKA.

Ok, nampak sah gila?

Ini hali talak untung...

2008-12-30T14:58:00.000+08:00

Apa punya nasib ini hari.

Hehehe.

Takda untong teros.

3 people down, so our cases will be a lot.

Then dapat message ada olang mau fetch. Ada part time ni, nak fetch hantar pi part time. Tadak untung seh aku pakai skirt! Nasib baik pakai seluar tights pendek pat dalam. Kalau tak, seluar rider tu jugak aku pakai. LOL.

Dah tu takpe.

Pat part time, kena menonggeng melutut menyangkung nak buat kerja carik assignments.

Da tak gLam teros.

Rahsia Bulan Kelahiran

2008-12-29T11:23:00.000+08:00

http://www.darulnuman.com/mhikmah/bulan.html

JANUARI

* Bercita-cita tinggi dan orangnya serius, suka mendidik dan dididik.
* Sangat mudah melihat kelemahan orang dan suka mengkritik.
* Rajin dan setiap yang dibuat nampak keuntungan.
* Suka pada kecantikan, kekemasan dan teratur.
* Bersifat sensitif dan berfikiran mendalam.
* Pandai mengambil hati orang lain.
* Pendiam kecuali telah dirangsang.
* Agak pemalu dan mempunyai daya tumpuan yang sangat tinggi.
* Mudah mendisiplinkan diri sendiri.
* Badannya sihat tetapi mudah diserang selsema.
* Bersikap romantik tetapi tidak pandai memperlihatkannya.
* Cukup sayang pada kanak-kanak.
* Suka duduk di rumah.
* Setia pada segala-galanya.
* Perlu belajar kemahiran bersosial.
* Sifat cemburu yang sangat tinggi

FEBRUARI

* Berfikiran abstrak.
* Sukakan benda yang realiti dan abstrak.
* Bijak dan pintar
* Berpewatakan yang mudah berubah.
* Mudah menawan orang lain.
* Agak pendiam.
* Pemalu dan rendah diri.
* Jujur dan setia pada segalanya.
* Keras hati untuk mencapai matlamat.
* Tidak suka dikongkong.
* Mudah memberontak apabila dikongkong.
* Suka kegiatan yang lasak.
* Emosinya mudah terluka dan sangat sensitif.
* Mudah mempamerkan marahnya.
* Tidak suka benda yang remeh-temeh.
* Suka berkawan tapi kurang mempamerkannya.
* Sangat berani dan suka memberontak.
* Bercita-cita tinggi, suka berangan-angan dan ada harapan untuk merealisasikan impiannya.
* Pemerhatian yang tajam.
* Suka hiburan dan sukan.
* Suka benda yang bersifat seni.
* Sangat romantik pada dalaman tetapi tidak pada luaran.
* Berkecenderungan pada benda yang tahyul.
* Amat mudah dan boleh menjadi terlalu boros.
* Belajar untuk mempamerkan emosi

MAC

* Berpesonaliti menarik dan menawan.
* Mudah didampingi.
* Sangat pemalu dan pemendam rasa.
* Sangat baik secara semulajadi, jujur pemurah dan mudah simpati.
* Sangat sensitif pada perkataan yang dituturkan dan alam persekitaran.
* Suka pada kedamaian.
* Sangat peka pada orang lain.
* Sesuai dengan kerjaya yang memberi khidmat kepada orang lain.
* Tidak cepat marah dan sangat amanah.
* Tahu membalas dan mengenang budi.
* Pemerhatian dan penilaian yang sangat tajam.
* Kecenderungan untuk berdendam jika tidak dikawal.
* Suka berangan-angan.
* Suka melancong.
* Sangat manja dan suka diberi perhatian yang sangat tinggi.
* Kelam kabut dalam memilih pasangan.
* Suka dengan hiasan rumahtangga.
* Punya bakat seni dalalm bidang muzik.
* Kecenderungan pada benda yang istimewa dan baik.
* Jangan terlalu mengikut selera atau perasaan

APRIL

* Sangat aktif dan dinamik.
* Cepat bertindak membuat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal.
* Sangat menarik dan pandai menjaga diri.
* Punya daya mental yang sangat kuat.
* Suka diberi perhatian.
* Sangat diplomatik (pandai memujuk ).
* Berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah orang.
* Sangat berani dan tiada perasaan takut.
* Suka perkara yang mencabar, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah.
* Emosi cepat terusik.
* Cuba kawal perasaan.
* Kecenderungan bersifat pendendam.
* Agresif dan kelam kabut dalam membuat keputusan.
* Kuat daya ingatan.
* Gerak hati yang sangat kuat.
* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan orang lain.
* Berpenyakit disekitar kepala dan dada.
* Sangat cemburu dan terlalu cemburu

MEI

* Keras hati & tegas.
* Kuat semangat & bermotivasi tinggi.
* Pemikiran yang tajam.
* Mudah marah apabila tidak dikawal.
* Pandai menarik hati & perhatian orang lain .
* Perasaan yang amat mendalam.
* Cantik dari segi mental & fizikal.
* Tidak perlu dimotivasikan.
* Tetap pendirian, tetapi mudah dipengaruhi oleh orang lain.
* Mudah dipujuk.
* Bersikap sistematik (otak kiri).
* Suka berangan.
* Kuat daya firasat memahami apa yang terlintas di hati orang lain tanpa diberitahu.
* Bahagian telinga & leher mudah diserang penyakit.
* Daya khayalan yang tinggi.
* Permikiran yang tajam.
* Pandai berdebat.
* Fizikal yang baik.
* Kelemahan sistem pernafasan.
* Suka sastera, seni & muzik serta melancong.
* Tidak berapa suka duduk di rumah.
* Tidak boleh duduk diam.
* Tidak punya ramai anak.
* Rajin dan bersemangat tinggi.
* Agak boros

JUN

* Berfikiran jauh & berwawasan.
* Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik.
* Berperangai lemah lembut.
* Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea dan mood.
* Idea yang terlalu banyak di kepala.
* Bersikap sensitif.
* Mempunyai pemikiran yang aktif (sentiasa berfikir).
* Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera.
* Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh.
* Bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yang terbaik.
* Cepat marah & cepat sejuk.
* Suka bercakap & berdebat.
* Suka buat lawak & bergurau.
* Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan.
* Mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan.
* orang yang sangat tertib.
* Pandai mempamerkan sikap.
* Mudah kecil hati.
* Mudah kena selsema.
* Suka berkemas.
* Cepat rasa bosan.
* Sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet.
* Kurang mempamerkan perasaan.
* Lambat untuk sembuh apabila terluka hati.
* Suka pada barang yang berjenama.
* Mudah menjadi eksekutif.
* Kedegilan yang tidak terkawal.
* Sesiapa yang memuji, dianggap musuh. Siapa yang menegur dianggap kawan.

JULAI

* Sangat suka didamping.
* Banyak berahsia dan sukar dimengerti terutamanya lelaki.
* Agak pendiam kecuali dirangsang.
* Ada harga dan maruah diri.
* Tak suka menyusahkan orang lain tapi tidak marah apabila disusahkan.
* Mudah dipujuk dan bercakap lurus.
* Sangat menjaga hati orang lain.
* Sangat peramah.
* Emosi sangat mendalam tapi mudah terluka hatinya.
* Berjiwa sentimental.
* Jarang berdendam.
* Mudah memaafkan tapi sukar melupakan.
* Tidak suka benda remeh-temeh.
* Membimbing cara fizikal dan mental.
* Sangat peka, mengambil berat dan mengasihi serta penyayang.
* Layanan yang serupa terhadap semua orang.
* Tinggi daya simpati.
* Pemerhatian yang tajam.
* Suka menilai orang lain melalui pemerhatian.
* Mudah dan rajin belajar.
* Suka muhasabah diri.
* Suka mengenangkan peristiwa atau kawan lama.
* Suka mendiamkan diri.
* Suka duduk di rumah.
* Suka tunggu kawan tapi tak cari kawan.
* Tidak agresif kecuali terpaksa.
* Lemah dari segi kesihatan perut.
* Mudah gemuk kalau tak kawal diet.
* Minta disayangi.
* Mudah terluka hati tapi lambat pulih.
* Terlalu mengambil berat.
* Rajin dalam membuat kerja

OGOS

* Suka berlawak.
* Mudah tertawan padanya.
* Sopan santun dan mengambil berat terhadap orang lain.
* Berani dan tidak tahu takut.
* Orangnya agak tegas & bersikap kepimpinan.
* Pandai memujuk orang lain.
* Terlalu pemurah & bersikap ego.
* Nilai harga diri yang sangat tinggi.
* Dahagakan pujian.
* Semangat juang yang luar biasa.
* Cepat marah & mudah mengamuk.
* Mudah marah apabila cakapnya dilawan.
* Sangat cemburu.
* Daya pemerhatian yang tajam & teliti.
* Cepat berfikir.
* Fikiran yang berdikari.
* Suka memimpin & dipimpin.
* Sifat suka berangan.
* Berbakat dalam seni lukis, hiburan & silat.
* Sangat sensitif tapi tidak mudah merajuk.
* Cepat sembuh apabila ditimpa penyakit.
* Belajar untuk bertenang.
* Sikap kelam kabut.
* Romantik, pengasih dan penyayang.
* Suka mencari kawan

SEPTEMBER

* Sangat bersopan santun & bertolak ansur.
* Sangat cermat, teliti & teratur.
* Suka menegur kesilapan orang lain & mengkritik.
* Pendiam tapi pandai bercakap.
* Sikap sangat cool, sangat baik & mudah simpati.
* Sangat perihatin & terperinci, amanah, setia & jujur.
* Kerja yang dilakukan sangat sempurna.
* Sangat sensitif yang tidak diketahui.
* orang yang banyak berfikir.
* Daya pentaakulan yang baik.
* Otak bijak & mudah belajar.
* Suka mencari maklumat.
* Kawal diri dari terlalu mengkritik.
* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
* Mudah memahami orang lain kerana banyak menyimpan rahsia.
* Suka sukan, hiburan & melancong.
* Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya.
* Terluka hatinya sangat lama disimpan.
* Terlalu memilih pasangan.
* Sukakan benda yang luas.
* Bersistematik

OKTOBER

* Suka berbual.
* Suka orang yang sayang padanya.
* Suka ambil jln tengah.
* Sangat menawan & sopan santun.
* Kecantikan luar & dalam.
* Tidak pandai berbohong & berpura-pura.
* Mudah rasa simpati, baik dan mementingkan kawan.
* Sentiasa berkawan.
* Hatinya mudah terusik tetapi merajuknya tak lama.
* Cepat marah.
* Macam pentingkan diri sendiri.
* Tidak menolong orang kecuali diminta.
* Suka melihat dari perspektifnya sendiri.
* Tidak suka terima pandangan orang lain.
* Emosi yang mudah terusik.
* Suka berangan & pandai bercakap.
* Emosi yang kelam kabut.
* Daya firasat yang sangat kuat (terutamanya perempuan).
* Suka melancong, bidang sastera & seni.
* Pengasih, penyayang & lemah lembut.
* Romantik dalam percintaan.
* Mudah terusik hati & cemburu.
* Ambil berat tentang orang lain.
* Suka kegiatan luar.
* orang yang adil.
* Boros & mudah dipengaruhi persekitaran.
* Mudah patah semangat

NOVEMBER

* Banyak idea dalam perkara.
* Sukar untuk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya.
* Berfikiran kehadapan.
* Berfikiran unik dan bijak.
* Penuh dengan idea-idea baru yang luarbiasa.
* Pemikiran yang tajam.
* Daya firasat yang sangat halus dan tinggi.
* Sesuai jadi seorang doktor.
* Cermat dan teliti.
* Personaliti yang dinamik.
* Sifat yang berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia.
* Banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra.
* Berani, pemurah setia dan banyak kesabaran.
* Terlalu degil dan keras hati.
* Apabila berkehendak sesuatu, akan diusahakan sehingga berjaya.
* Tak suka marah kecuali digugat.
* Mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain.
* Pandai muhasabah diri.
* Cara berfikir yang lain dari orang lain.
* Otak yang sangat tajam.
* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
* Tidak hargai pujian.
* Kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yang sangat tinggi apabila berkehendak sesuatu.
* Cuba sampai berjaya.
* Badan yang sasa.
* Kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam dan romantik.
* Tidak pasti dengan hubungan kasih sayang.
* Suka duduk d irumah.
* Sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi.
* Amanah, jujur, setia dan pandai berahsia.
* Tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi.
* Bercita-cita tinggi.
* Perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah

DISEMBER

* Sangat setia dan pemurah.
* Bersifat patriotik.
* Sangat aktif dalam permainan dan pergaulan.
* Sikap kurang sabar dan tergesa-gesa.
* Bercita-cita tinggi.
* Suka menjadi orang yang berpengaruh dalam organisasi.
* Seronok bila didampingi.
* Suka bercampur dengan orang.
* Suka dipuji, diberi perhatian dan dibelai.
* Sangat jujur, amanah dan bertolak ansur.
* Tidak pandai berpura-pura.
* Cepat marah.
* Perangai yang mudah berubah-ubah.
* Tidak ego walaupun harga dirinya sangat tinggi.
* Benci pada kongkongan.
* Suka berlawak.
* Pandai buat lawak dan berfikiran logik

"Never Look Back," we said

2008-12-29T09:09:00.000+08:00

Recently, I started to receive her sms again almost everyday, that says:

"Hi Kak Illya."

Nak jawab apa?

Once upon a time, she asked, "Kak Illya da tak kawan dengan ALONG lagi eh?"

(pandai pandai korang guess ah siapa budak ni maksud ALONG tu. hehehe.)

Again, nak jawab apa?

Ah, ni la dia budak nye. So clue nye is, time aku kawan ngan si ALONG dia ni, aku jadi BOOLAT GILA mcm pat pic pat atas. LOL.

Atah, nanti kak illya sedih la.

Mcm mana aku nak cakap aku nak kena move on.

Mcm mana nak cakap, each time she sms nanti ALONG dia tu pat kepala otak aku berjambul.

AKu tak boleh cakap, "ALONG, keluar dari kepala hotak aku bole tak?"

Aku tahu ALONG dia mesti baca ni kan?

Ahhhh...ni mesti Atah rindu Kak Illya kannnn.

LOL.

The New Year

2008-12-27T07:21:00.000+08:00

2008 have been such a wonderful year.

Its way much much much better than 2007.

A more relax, calm and cool 2008. I do not have much of anger, sad, nonsensical feelings in me throughout the year. I mean, there were but not as much. Things do happen of course but the feelings were managable and controllable in a sense where I did not throw any frustrations anywhere. Syukur Alhamdulilah.

Since it is coming to the end of the year, I wished it closes nicely, (but work will be hell of course.)

To whom I met throughout 2008, I appreciate everyone of u.

But somehow, kudos to me for putting away a fren named "Takdir Illahi." Erm ok, exact spelling of his name when he showed me his pass is "Takder Illahi." Call him Eddie. Tink I've done a good job for smacking him away. Rite? I can't probably be friends with someone who will call me every half an hour to ask kalau da mkn ke belum, da mkn ubat ke belum, ok ke tak, blablabla.. and giving belasan missed calls within few minutes? That was only few days of making frens. RIMAS. After 1 or 2 weeks of not "layan-ing" him, I told him off coz he finally got it that he's super irritating.

Back to the topic.

The New Year.

1) Studying/Learning, understanding, knowing more about life and religion. *expected to be MIA.*

2) Get that Bridal Make Up Cert..I've worked my ass off n killing my appetite to save up.

3) Save more money like I used to. For wat *wink wink wink*

4) Keep my hair long. *Blink at RL*

5) Keep myself healthy and get back in shape. (Might contradict with the appetite. ARGH.)

6) Spend more time with my oven, kitchen stove and recipe book to do more experiments.

7) Get my hands to learn sewing clothes..!

8) To have fun. Hahaha. And protect myself from trouble.

9) Of course, to see everyone in a good health and wonderful life ahead.

10) Last but not least, After my job contract ended on 30th April 2009, I want to be a TAI TAI. WAKAKAKAKAKA.

Rainy Day

2008-12-24T06:54:00.000+08:00

Its a bit rainy today..

Well, my off day...

hehehehe.

I hope this whether don't spoil the plan to meet the bitch tonite...BITCH U GONNA LELONG UR BIKINI DOWN THERE RITEEE. HAHAHA.

Meeting RL soon after cooking..ahakz.

since its rainy...... why not get him to assist me to bake bread eyyy?? confirm laku anak bujang buat roti...LOL.

lagi2 his bike is in workshop..wanted to rent car but too last minute...

Countdown

2008-12-22T03:24:00.000+08:00

Countdown to wat?

PAYDAY...!!!!! Few days time......

Heeheee. Tu Lah, siapa suruh ada bacteria kucing dalam perot....LOL..

Doctor: Do u have cats at home?

Me: No

Doctor: Do u play with cats?

Me: No. I'm SHY with cats.

Doctor: Oh, the bacteria found in ur stomach are bacteria found in cats.

*Looks at Noora Gembala Kucing.*

Happy Bday.....!

2008-12-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated Bday Tina..!

Moga Moga dipanjangkan umur dan dipanjangkan segalanya...ooopst...depan belakang dah ada 2....hehehehe.

ANyway, yesterday was planned made for 2 days aje. Coz today marks 24th Bday for SHARIL a.k.a RL. Well pakcik, wish u all the best in everything u do, everything yesterday was successful. WOOOHOOO. Terperanjat kan kan kan.

Thx dee and wan for the cake and macnonald.

Unfortunately, my camera went flat, but i managed to snap these.

As much As I know

2008-12-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

Know what?

I do not have special powers.

Some would blame me for knowing things without people telling. Its never based on assumptions, but its always based on surroundings. Not that I know 100%, but maybe 15% out of it I find out by myself my getting the correct answers be it in front of my eyes, or not.

Now I noe why I don't like to have many close frens. I only have 1. And that is the reason why I seldom or NEVER have arguements, fights or misunderstanding with anybody. Except for jerks along the way.

So for people who at least TRY to find fault with me, I'm all ready for attacks but I'm very sure I'm not afraid of anything. Why would i be afraid. Senses tell me that Bitch attacks are coming along the way, dats for sure. But under certain circumstances, it may not happen.

Coz I'm looking for trouble. HUH. ME LOOKING FOR TROUBLE. SOUNDS FUNNY.

Or THEY are looking for trouble?

How much i realised I'm protected since born.

Alhamdulilah.

UGLY

2008-12-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

I dun wanna go anywhere. I tink these red spots will be part of my face already. NOOOOOO.

Tak kan lah nak keluar kena pakai makeup tebal2 macam nak perform tarian seh..ARGH ARGH ARGHHH

JATUH SERI MUKA AKUUUU...

Haizzz doctor.....

Kalau mintak, kasi tak?

2008-12-15T18:45:00.000+08:00

"Kalau kena dgn mintaknye, tentu lah kasi.."

Hehehehe. Dulu dulu kalau tgk citer ada line mcm ni, no comment..cubalah kalau sekarang tgk citer ni..macam macam orang boleh elaborate. lol.

Finally, I'm back, TAK CUKUP LA 3 Hari 2 Malam. So amny things to do and buy, so little time. With backache and body aches.

My sis say: Tgh banyak duit ni tak tahu plak nak beli ape. Kalau takda duit mcm2 nak beli.

Tapi the truth iis..Toooo many things to look at...mcm nak beli semua bab tu..!

But ya, both my sisters brought a luggage each, which i tink is not helpful, coz, STILL TAK CUKUP BAG. Kakak dorang yg satu ni kononnye takda banyak benda nak beli la, nak relek je...sekali... "Ati, tumpang luggage kau, ah yg ni boleh?"

And the best thing ever..after the thrilling rides, went to the toilet and gez wat?

My face have red spots all over...!!!

ARGHHH, I seriously dunnoe what causes all these.

N now, to go out I have to wear power to cover all these ugly thing. AARRRGGGHHH. I look so bopenggg sehhhhh!

R-U-D-E

2008-12-12T16:39:00.000+08:00

Customer is always right?

N-O NO.

Sometimes, we just need to shut them off nicely.

Ok, not talking about wat, BUT its all about students.

Practically, they don't wanna follow the school rules, instead, they want the school to follow their rules, their say, their wants.

I'm not being selfish, but to be fair to other students who paid for the service, they should at least be considerate. Even every page counts, 5cents per page, I don't dare to close eyes coz I don't own this company. But still, they want us to treat them like BIG ****.

"No, we are not students, we are consultants."

Ya, u r taking ur MASTERS here, u r still studying here and wat makes u tink dat u get those previlages(mcm salah spell je.)

R U D E

What is the difference?

2008-12-11T05:37:00.000+08:00

A: Hi, what is the difference between Save as Draft and Save as Actual?

HELLO TEACHER, which part of DRAFT and ACTUAL u don't understand?

Sacrifice..

2008-12-09T14:39:00.000+08:00

Wat I did to get wat I wanted to achieve..

Sacrificed my time and take up part time job..

Sacrificed my tummy to save money..(now u noe whyyyy I'm losing kg)

Sacrificed my energy to get myself working all day long..

Sacrificed my sleep to wake up early so I wont be late for work..

Sacrificed my heart to learn, concentrate and focus..

But time will tell, whether all these sacrification will lead to what I really want to achieve, or it will be wasted..

Two weeks

2008-12-07T20:35:00.000+08:00

Already for two weeks in a row I've been busy working full time from mon to sat and part time on certain weeknights n on two sundays from 9-6. GheGheGheGhe.

Somehow I tink quite worth it, coz I'l still wake up early eventho theres no work...!

So here I am, doing nothing at work but getting paid. Its all about saving money.!

At least, tmrow is Hari Raya Haji, and which means, seeing cousins time!

And I tink. I really think that the group going to KL this sat is now feeling excited..! Adik2 aku da plan nak bawak trolley bag besar. Siao kan dorang. LOL.

Oh well whatever it is, we really deserve a BREAK.

HaHaHa Ppy Ppy Ppy

2008-12-06T04:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday cousin Noni.!

Dat was yesterday.

Babe, dah 21..! So now kalau gi KL can go to clubs, tak mcm last month eh confident tunjuk IC tapi takleh masuk bab lum 21. hurhurhur.

Anyway, Dangdut kapa?

LOL.

Starbucks Free Drinks

2008-12-05T05:43:00.000+08:00

Everyone knows yesterday theres startbuck free drinks.

My sister dragged me along in the evening(a few hours after my scope.)

Of coz people would say these people queueing are kiasus.

BUT.

Can't beat this particular KIASU who demands a customised ice chocolate.

KIASU SAYS: *Loudly* I WANT ICE CHOCOLATE DONT WANT ICE WITH LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF WHIPPED CREAM AND CHOCOLATE SYRUP.

And when his order is ready, the crew shouted "Who ordered Ice chocolate without ice..!"

KIASU Says: MEEEE. ITS MINE ITS MINE. CAN U PLEASE PUT MOOOOREEEE WHIPPED CREAM AND THE CHOCOLATE SYRUP?

Bila dah dapat tu, dia JILAT tu whipped cream mcm makan ice cream sebelum amik straw.!

OMG k.

Weekend is here

2008-12-05T04:22:00.000+08:00

Wheeeehoo.

Its only the first week of the month and I am looking forward for end of the month for my pay.!

Its so frustrating..!

Anybody want to see my stomach? hehehe.

Time Past real fast

2008-12-02T08:01:00.000+08:00

Its already december, coming to a new fresh year.

I realised that time flies real fast, faster than those schooling days in the past.

Sometimes I do not know what do I want in life.

Initially I would want to take degree in IT (just continuing from when I ended,) but I don't see myself as some IT person in the future.

But I said to myself, what's life without learning?

Now, I really decide to take up courses, which what I can see me doing in the future (Insya'Allah.) Not to waste money, but to boost the skills and learn new things.

Heh Heh Heh.

So what do u tink I want to take?

Kursus Rumahtannga. Macam mentel kan? WAKAKAKA. No lah.

Why not YOU list out what is suitable for me to take.

mau apa cakap?

2008-11-30T09:57:00.000+08:00

First and foremost,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BOY TUA..! I mean. SHARUL.

Now I'm at part time, practically, technically, exactly doing nothing. Heh. I mean, apart from typing for this entry. Purpose to be here is to cover another person. But seriously, no disturbance at all.

in the morning just now at 9am, in this office, i'm happily having my breakfast. Which is Rice with lemak ikan and sambal sotong. I'm so turned on with having rice/bread/PIZZA(bekal from home) for breakfast and nothing but sleeping for lunch. Ghhhheeeeez. Bole terima and ada selera la pulak pagi2. Sometimes even happily eating nasi lemak in the office at 7am. LOL.

Finally 7am shift is over, so it will be 8-5. Bollywood starts on 11th december. very sad coz no belly dancing for the month!

BTW, met cousin Noni on friday for lepak and catch up session. Which means >>updates in our family and life. Life have been much terrible. For her. For me. For people around us. I know so much she cant take it anymore and wanting to disapper anytime man! Oh well, at least from the way she talked and describe dengan sepenuh hati dan perasaan. Gosh. Was that shocked to hear how much she spent dat day. Hahaha.

I tink we must have a cousin gathering. Yg Nana, bz nak kawin agaknye. Hmmmmm..

Mentel or wat!

2008-11-28T06:58:00.000+08:00

See.! Instead of taking the pic with the bride, she's the one who snapped our pic. AND. most importantly, when comes to taking candid pics, y semua tu mentel gila nak mampos ni? Or shall i say MIANG? Hehehehe.

I am missing some people.

Yesterday went to my life partner's house for no reason. Mama notices me physically. And she said, Hari Raya tak datang, Nenek woodlands pun carik..

Ni zaman bilaaaa seh!

Nak? Tanak? Takpe..

2008-11-26T11:34:00.000+08:00

Look at others, look at yourself.

Reflect what you have in you, reflect what others have leave an impact on you.

Hello?

Try as much as possible to help the troubled, especially your close ones. Get the inner most generous in you to get a solution to make sure things are moving on smoothly. Its by nature, NOT TO IMPRESS.

Impressing doesnt help in anyway. Its more to like "angkat bodek biar orang semua suka."

Its sad la to see when a person need help, but nobody is there to help..I mean not nobody..but sometimes people chose to IGNORE. Maybe troubled? Oh well, I'm not in any position to say.

Bapak aku cakap, sejauh mana mampu tolong orang, tolong aje..BUT nobody can help you but yourself. (Which means to analyse that, kau mintak tolong, semua orang buat bodoh.)

Sedih kan?

Tergoda?

2008-11-24T03:16:00.000+08:00

Ohhhh...

Aku tergoda...aku tergoda keranamuuu..

Siapa kata dia tak tergoda tgk pic ni, bedek ah!

LAAAAAA. Bukan niii

Yang niii Laaa..

CCCUUUTTTEEE SANGAT SANGATTTT

Havoc to the max!

2008-11-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

Past few days/weeks was damn havoc in office!

Everyone was shouting to themselves, cursing here and there, scolding everywhere.

We really can't wait for all these to be over, coz i can see everyone's head is going bald, everyone's hair is turning white/silver/grey(exeggerating hehehe.) Oh well, lucky thing that our office have no windows at all, if not I tink we can just bang the window anytime. HarHarHar. and we have 4 doors including the main door to access before reaching our office, mcm "barang baik" la plak pat dalam dalam. hehehe.

We wished so much that all these people will meet the datelines correctly and know what to do and not doing things at the very last minute, and not creating chaos all over with us.

Sometimes, I wonder they get paid very very high, but we are the ones doing their things. SO, can I take over their posts? $$$$$$$$$$$$

Yay Yay

2008-11-15T13:05:00.000+08:00

Conversation on the phone, from Msia

Kakak: Helo siapa tu

Abang&Adik: Helo Kak Liyaaaa. Ni ATEK.(adik). Abang tu situ.

Kakak: Abang Adik tengah buat apa?

Abang&Adik: Tengah BUMP Bashikai ahh..(tengah pump basikal)

Kakak: Abang Adik bila balik Singapore?

Abang&Adik: Hayi LABU

Kakak: Abih balik Singapore nak buat apa?

Abang&Adik: Nak gi SHIMMING, pat ibu work...! (nak gi swimming, tempat kerja ibu.)

CANT WAIT.

Louis Vuitton, Chanel, Gucci and etc...

2008-11-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

My colleague was browsing through a website..and she read out something funny about the website..

Click on the link below to read lorrr!

http://salelv.com/reg.asp

Apologies

2008-11-08T18:35:00.000+08:00

How do we know if apology is being accepted or not.? When theres no reply at all...

Last weekend

2008-11-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

My last saturday was a blast!

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Yi Xuan. U've

turned 21 today!.

Ya, anyway.

1st nov had Yi Xuan's birthday gathering. And the 4 of us gathered.

At Changi Safra, some ulu ulu place. BUT yet, the chalet is really nice eh!

Seriously, i am very very happy gilerrrrr(HAPPY GILER MCM NAK PANJAT POKOK DOK..) bila dapat jumpa my sec sch clan...

Haiz~

I miss those days man!

Ada rindu?

2008-11-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

Siapa rindu sayaaaaaa?!?!

Hehehe.

10th and 11th November are my 2 baby ganyots a.k.a sisters birthdays!

I really dun now what to get for them.

Pratically, they got everything they wanted. So I got nothing to buy for them.*GRINS*

From PS3 to Guess Watches to new handphones to ipods to tops and bottoms and jackets and shoes and bags and wat else bebeh?

Oh my dad's bday is on 17th Nov.

Dun Wait

2008-11-01T04:26:00.000+08:00

That's what I've been telling myself.

Read HER blog and somehow SHE mentioned it was too rushing BUT still makes "Goodbye seems to be the hardest word."

Eventhough Goodbye is just a word, easy to understand but it is one of the most difficult "thing" to do. Its november now, and i clearly remember "Tragedy November" that i went through last year.

Was so difficult. Was so hurting. One of my worst experience that I will never forget. I'm not thinking about it, but sure it wont go away. Right MAHATHIR BIN JOHAN?

Oh so whats with the title now?

Dun Wait

BUT I need time.

Its hard to choose. 1, 2 or 3.

Either way, GOODBYE is still a need.

It aint easy.

Vacation?

2008-10-29T17:38:00.000+08:00

I need that.

But.

Any sponsors? Hahahaha. Banyak cantik muka aku!

Oh ya.

!!!WARNING!!! (TUNJUK GERAM)

I'm not on strict diet. Thank You.

Taxi Taxi

2008-10-25T08:47:00.000+08:00

4 youngsters board a cab.

Taxi drebar talk to me: Wah, I thought u are alone, suddenly got another 3 at the back.

My cousin whispers to me: Amboi, taxi drebar nak dating ngan u ke.

Me: Hahaha.

Taxi drebar talk and talk and talk.

Then talk about his childhood kampong days.

He says: Ah, I learn this thing from my malay fren. He teach me "eh minah lu manyak cantik macam MONGEK."

All of us: WAAAAhAHAHAHAHAHAhAHAHAHAHA sampai bergolek dlm taxi. *bedek siak.*

He says: Then u noe wat? she throw slipper at my face. I really thought it means Hey girl, u are beautiful like an angel.

All of us: WAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

He says: Another thing my fren teach me. "eh makcik TETEK BESAR TAK BOLEH LARI."

All of us: WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHAAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAHAA.

He never thought it would means that big breasts cannot run..! His fren told him that it means big sized people cannot run.

Wah Lau wey. dahsyat.

Say goodbye to Upin and Ipin

2008-10-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

Me and Ati will be lonely from today onwards.

The twins are going back to Msia. For 2 months i tink. Bibik will be following them along.

Kakak da takda fweeennnnnnn.

My last pic with them this morning.

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-10-07T06:04:00.000+08:00

Bluek!

Not too late lor..

Sempena bulan yg mulia ni...saya ingin Mintak Maaf, mintak ampun, MINTAK DUIT boleh? hurhurhur.

Mintak maaf eh semua atas kesilapan yg lalu...next month buat lagi...hehehe

Anyway...involving too much of emotions for this month.

Firstly, received my shift for this month, tenggelam jantung aku....Start at 10 end at 7. Thx. Was told "Puasa finish" so no more remeh temeh. Thx again.

For that, I can't do much visiting, my dad always say "How are u going to know who are ur family?"

Oh well. Not my fault. I have always been the one at the losing end . WA MENGALAH BEB.

Wont want to fight much as my emotions might get worst. Apart from that, I have part time too. I dun understand why they dun want to take this as a "valid reason." The best part is PRIORITY is given to the best full time story teller that does not even celebrate for this festive season. How unfair can that be? Now u noe why i've got no motivation to continue here.

If they were to say "Ur problem to take part time." I do part time for a reason.

Rather than saying "I cant finish at 7 as i will go back late. I need to go back early to cook and eat. If not I will get sick."

Yup that kind of reason are given the priority to. I duno what is so valid about the reason, but still I'm speechless.

I shouldnt have told them dat I cant come this sat due to that I have open house..I should have told them "I'm too tired to come to work because I'm going hari raya visiting and eating lots of kuihs and kentupats and rendangs."

Coz I cant gurantee I will get leave from work to manage my open house. Haiz.

WA SABAR BEB.

Joke Of the day eh!

2008-09-18T12:33:00.000+08:00

On Tuesday, 16th September.

Was rather sleepy, just finish showering and getting ready for work.

So adik aku yg paling bongsu tu, dia baru rebond ramot on Sunday, tak leh basahkan ramot so kena pakai showercap.

Bila dia pulak dah habis mandi, aku tgk dia pakai "showercap.." Aku terketawa kenapa

showercap tu ada 2 lobang besar...rupanya dia pakai

disposable underwear pat kepala dia k..!!

Geli hati sak aku...!!!!!

Sept 18!

2008-09-18T06:14:00.000+08:00

13 days to Raya...!

I've listed out the budak2 i need to give green packets.

The one around me is already 40 total from both sides. Fuuuuh. Ini mcm aku kena pecahkan tabung babi ahhh...WAKAKAKAAKAKAKA. Baik lah RL, tabung babi kape...! Sesungguhnye kita orang melayu tak sentuh babi k. *giggles* U sorang uhhh gi pecahkan.

Started mugging in front of the oven last sunday, the whole day, on tuesday after work.! Tak aman betol. But...the chocolate macroons 2 adunan aku bikin, about 200++ pieces da abis pun disebat oleh si kembar mentel..! Darah up aje..Belum masuk oven, da kena sebat, bila yg da masak nye, smalam tgk je tinggal berapa pieces aje. Nasib baik tak sedap. Biskut lain pun aku da simpan. hahaha. So...Dun disturb me anymore nak kena saunaaaaa depan oven today onwards, this weekend and whole week next week. Al maklum, this year buat single mingle..takda kucing, takda mama, takda noora gembala kucing..cuma ada kembarrr je! giishh!! Siapa yg sanggup tolong? Tunggu aje this sat! hehehe.

So have been planning my leaves, tak bleh tahan. Sekarang aje mcm separuh nyawa aje aku ada. Lagi Lagi gunakan akal fikiran tak henti2 untuk kerja. Tapi..................Watever gitu loh. Tak kuasa nak layan lagi2 time posa ni kan. Sabar aje lah hendaknye...memang tak semua yg kita nak kita dapat kan. Penat letih mcm mana pun..go on aje la. Ada salah silap, woodbridge jugak tunggu aku masuk. Siapa mau ikot?

Yup Yup

2008-09-15T04:37:00.000+08:00

15th Ramadhan.

Syukur Alhamdulilah.

Bibik have gone back to Indon. Sish. Tears during Ramadhan huh?

Accompanying her when she's packing

Sent her on 13th Sept, as well as we fetch the new Bibik from Ulu Pandan. So..Presenting the new Bibik..

Wakakakaka. K la...Not la...I didnt manage to snap the REAL FULL TIME bibik...this is the part time je...

When Patient is a REAL need

2008-09-08T09:42:00.000+08:00

When will this be there always?

During this holy month of Ramadhan, lots of hurdles that we Muslims have to go through.

Among all these, the number one point other than temptation is...PATIENCE.

Takleh maki2, takleh cakap yg buruk2. Macam ada orang cakap, "Ah? Tgh puasa takleh maki2 tapi boleh makan eh? Bih nanti time buka u maki2 aje la."

WAKAKAKAA. mcm nak cepuk orang tu pun ada. Ni mesti dia tgh baca.

Yang paling penting.

Pekara pelik2 yg timbul time time posa ni. 2 agents out for reservist for few weeks. So which means this place huru hara seh.

Pastu pekara pelik ni lah buat orang orang di sekolah untuk kacau kita kita pat kerja ni. Ada yg nak tu nak ni. Mcm tu mcm ni. Rosak sana rosak sini. Haiz. Cobaan betul. Sungguh aku takda energy nak marah ke apa.

So last weekend went to JB with the couple Wan and Dee.

Didnt stay long there, mcm takda benda nak buat.(Save laaaa $$$ aku. LOL)

Buka @ Causeway point, then went to Soulmate's house. As usual, kucing2 nya berkeliaran ada nak naik pat peha akuuuuuuuu. terpekikkkkk patikkk. Stayed there till 3++ in the morning, tolong dia untuk assignment yang sesungguhnye aku da lost touch untuk benda2 assignment ni. itu yg buat aku sahur at rumah bukit panjang with my eyes half closed.

So sunday bila bangun aje kemas rumah. Ish habukkkk. Al maklum da lama tak balik rumah since my aunt and cousin stay situ. So it makes me to have flu bcoz of the habuk, and now its affecting my facial muscles pasal terlalu banyak BLOW.

Aku ingat sunday dapat rest kan...da sampai rumah teck whye, nak tido but si kembar dapat mainan train baru..so kakak kakak dorang ni yg pasangkan dorang sorang satu. Pening pasang lego kretapi ni..now i'm at work terlentok lentok bebual ngan users.

Me, Dee, Wan

Ku Mencari

2008-09-02T07:23:00.000+08:00

Carik punye carik pic tarian Secondary, Jumpa 1 aje loh..Ni time Sec 2..

Jgn ketawa ah...

Bongkok semacam..

Ni time time-time tgh molek ni. haha. Molek la sangat.

Jgn Ketawa ah eh. Nak ketawa pun ketawa aje La.

Kental to the max.

Selamat berpuasa

2008-09-01T07:43:00.000+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum Wr Wb.

Kepada semua umat Islam,

saya ingin mengucapkan

Selamat Berpuasa.

Decision

2008-08-24T17:51:00.000+08:00

Till now, still yet to decide.

Its not a normal decision to take this or that.

Its the biggest decision, for the ur future, for the rest of ur lifetime.

How to get this done when u are dead confuse or don't know what to do.

Just remember one thing.

Allah wujud.

What I've learnt. No matter whatever words that come out from your mouth, the TRUTH is still in your heart. So where to find the truth? Tanya pada hati.

But. This really takes time.

Can I?

2008-08-10T10:11:00.000+08:00

CAN I JUST DISAPPEAR....?????

TAK BOLEH TAHAN LAGI.........!!!!

Nasi Lemak Sambal Tumis Ikan Selar Kuning

2008-08-09T11:48:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh..

Pada pagi itu, kakak hendak memasak nasi lemak, dan lauknya ikan selar kuning, telur dadar, keropok dan sambal tumis sotong.

Kerana tiada banyak masa untuk memasak, Kakak meminta tolong adik bongsu nya untuk membeli daun pandan dan belacan.

Sesudah adik bongsunya pulang membawa bahan tersebut, kakak mula lah membuka "belacan" itu untuk ditumis..

Apabila Kakak mengambil "belacan itu.." kakak terpikir...LAIN MACAM JE NI..BETUL KE TAK SEH..Bila Kakak da betul2 bukak "Belacan" tu, Kakak KETAWA KUAT KUAT dan berkata kepada adik bongsunya:

"ATI KAU BELI PAPADUM MENTAH BUAT APA?" WAAAHAAAHAAAHAAAHAA. Asal bulat je belacan ah kira???

Patience

2008-08-07T04:17:00.000+08:00

Patience is Virtue.

True. But I've got no patience anymore.

Need to get out of this place badly..! Real bad.

I dun want to care anymore coz I tink not worth waiting, caring and being patient here.

I'm about to explode anytime soon not only them alrite. so beware.

I know I know. This sounds selfish when u read so many "I"

But. I really give up. Those cockups and systems and also users are just the characters in the game here, we the "saver" or "opponent" are confused, which gives no motivation for me to be here.

Aku da hampir gila, please dun say anything. Wa Buay Tahan liao.

BUT.

I'VE GOT TO GO.

Live life to the fullest

2008-08-02T06:34:00.000+08:00

Let me introduce to u...my new hommies...

I mean....

My aunt & daughters who stayed over to my place after she separated.

And I Am very sure that ur two boys here misses all of u...

I made my time to spend time at swensens with those ladies above. We saw couples holding hands and my aunt said "SEKARANG LAKI BINI KELUAR NAK KENA PIMPIN TANGAN, KALAU TAK NANTI LAKI KENA KEBAS."

My cousin laughed n said "Wah mak, dendam abis seh."

Hahaha. Ok, its not funny but..I duno how to explain here!

I noe its not easy..separating the 4 children apart is also not a good feelling to go through..Well, the best is, make yourself comfortable at my home coz i noe its not easy staying there because of my sick mum..but yg penting, ada tempat tinggal..

Its good to see the little cousin likes to disturb my father..hahaha.

But yet again, jgn ada dendam, jgn ada perasaan marah, jgn ada perasaan benci terhadap si dia tu yg pernah memberikan rezeki pada suatu ketika..being divorced after 19/20 years of marriage is not easy..i may not understand what is the feeling, the sadness, the hurt, the everything..but just sama sama doakan supaya si dia tu bahagia di samping orang baru..sedih tu memang tak dapat dielakkan..look on a brighter side that there are more freedom for ur eldest child to mix around with us, more freedom to relate with other family..no more curfews..

*suka aku bawak anak orang pi hooray hoooray karaoke sampai hangover...hahaha* eh, no todi involve actually.

Sori Tak sengaja

2008-07-31T06:37:00.000+08:00

Tak Sengaja Tapi Ini Terjadi..!

Wooots. Sounds so jiwang.

Tapi ini tentang...BBBBUUUUURRRRRRPPPPPP.

Its getting more and more each day. I have no idea why, but somewhat around this year, I started to burp more than usual. isk.!

Eversince I said "OOps sori, that is so not like me." It become more.

I duno whats the problem, but I really apologised if some of u find it disgusting or rude.

It is happening Very very often. Some even said "THAT IS SO NOT LADY-LIKE." But it is something that i cant control. Once or twice I even accidentally burp when online with users coz tak sempat nak letak mute..heh. Sad story..

Oh I am not the only one. Bukan nak mengata orang, tapi My cousin NANA lagi champion. Kan babe? hahaha.

Siapa sudi mengurut saya...

Number that worth $2

2008-07-30T08:06:00.000+08:00

If u r lucky enough.

LOL.

A person approached to pass me $2, says its mine coz he says once upon a time i dropped it somewhere.

So he go "Hey take this. I guess this is yours. By the way, if anything u give me a call alrite. My number is 9299 bla bla bla bla. U r Suraya rite?"

Me: *Blur.* No.

He: Chinese ah?

Me: No

He: U r from Dunearn Sec rite?

Me: No

He: Oh ok, faster la take my number, ada HAL nak cakap ngan u.

Me: Dun want.

He: Why. I have urgent matter to speak to u. U take my number, if u tink its suitable, u call me k. Or U give me ur number.

Me: No and dun want. *Apa urgent matter agaknye.*

He: Kenapa sombong? U da kawin eh.

Me: *Nak aje aku cakap dah kawin anak da 11.* But blurted out to say "Belum kawin tapi next week." *Walk off.*

He: Bedek? Eh. Please ah. Marah ke.

Me: *Walk off*

Takbleh angkat part "CEPAT LAH AMIK NOMBOR I...9299...CEPAT LAAAA.."

SIAO.

Happy 23rd birthday Yanie!

2008-07-29T06:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK...!

Phew!

The small "surprise" was a success.

Me and Mama would llike to sat Sorry to mak for secretly liasing with Abgnye....heeheehee.

Hope u like the place we've chosen for u, we even eat at the place to taste the food before double confirming to book the place. Heheehe.

Have a great year ahead, and I LOVE UUUUUU... MUUAAAAHH.

Irresistable

2008-07-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

Knowing all the "dramas" that happened everywhere, there might things that you might not want to know.. BUT if you have already known what happened which is so not your problem, TAK KE RASA MCM NAK DISAPPEAR???????

Ghheeeeeeez!

I dun want to know that this is happening to people whom I know.

Irresistable? OMG.

What if it happens back to u in the future? Wat would u feel?

U tink? U tink it can go very very far with that kind of situation. If u do, u must be THE SILLIEST, STUPIDEST, THE MOST HEARTLESS person. Dan sewaktu dengannyer.

Dun take things for granted. IF it is only for u to feel "good" and "great "then FORGET it. Not worth doing, coz in the end you know it is not going anywhere. Tink of the other side. THE INNOCENT ONES. The FAITHFUL one. The ADORABLE ones.

So close

2008-07-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

So close that our nickname didnt change.

So close that it feels comfortable even after a very long time of not seeing each other.

So close that the touch makes me feel who i belong to. (which is not)

So close that no secrets kept.

So close that no hatred feelings left.

So close that I'm not ashamed to tell what I feel.

So close that initiative and truth is still a must to let out.

So close that I have to still be polite to you.

I hereby to say THANK YOU with all my heart body and soul..(mana datang ni body laaa..)

So attached,so glued, so nailed to you in the past.

Jenis Rambut...MUST READ

2008-07-25T12:24:00.000+08:00

Thx SexyMummy!

Jgn marah ye….hari ni kita belajar bab rambut….penting ni!....

1) rambut lurus
bijak, seorang yang happy, bergaya, cemburu,dan pandai dalam menguruskan sesuatu tanpa pertolongan

2) RAMBUT KERINTING TEBAL
kurang bijak, degil, cemburu kuat, romantic,banyak pergaulan dan susah dalam menyelesaikan masalah diri, tidak suka termenung

3) RAMBUT KERINTING NEGRO
bijak, ego, cemburu buta, romantic, memilih dan mudah mengamuk bila susah hendak selesaikan masalah

4) RAMBUT IKAL MAYANG
bijak, berfikir sebelum melakukan sesuatu,berfikiran terbuka, banyak pergaulan, dan mudah memaaf kan seseorang dengan kesilapan lalu.

5) RAMBUT HALUS/LEMBUT
bijak sangat, memilih, pemaaf, manja, tegas dan cepat melakukan perkerjaan dengan bersungguh-sungguh.

6) RAMBUT SIKIT
bijak, sentiasa berfikiran negatif pada seseorang, ego dan pandai membuka perniagaan walaupun kecil.

7) RAMBUT PERANG
kurang bijak, berfikiran terbuka, pemaaf, sosial dan bijak lari daripada masalah.

8) RAMBUT TEBAL
bijak, degil, cemburu, romantic, kasar, banyak kawan dan pandai mengambil hati seseorang.

9) RAMBUT KUSUT
sangat bijak, berfikiran terbuka, banyak pergaulan, garang, susah nak memaafkan seseorang, dan pandai dalam mengurusan sesuatu tanpa pertolongan.
p/s: malas sikat rambut

10) RAMBUT BERUBAN
kurang bijak, suka termenung, sosial sikit,berfikiran terbuka dan pandai selesaikan masalah diri

11)TIADA RAMBUT
xtau nak ckp apa......kesian

12) Rambut warna Kemerah-merahan atau Kehijau Hijauan

itu rambutann... Huahuahuahua...jangan marah...gerammmm takperrrrrrrrrrggg

Good Luck Deq Ratna

2008-07-25T07:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Deq Ratna,

Eventhough I only came once for the training, I would like to wish u all GOOD LUCK for the comp tommorrow. Here are the pix that I've snapped.

Tink Slowly

2008-07-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

I'm wrong.

Happy Birthday Fahd!

2008-07-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

Sorry, a late entry, semalam tak sempat.

Today,21st July 2008, U've turned 24..! Dah tua jack..! Find a GF quick and settle down, takkan asik nak berkepit ngan aku jer..mcm mana nak ada GF camni.! Dalam opis, pusing je kau, abis keje, makan ngan kau pastu lepak ngan kau. Rimas siak aku kau asik ketawakan aku je..! *giggles*

So, bro, no matter how irritating u r, always asking me to massage, tampal koyok la, cocok babat aku, terperanjatkan aku, marah aku tak tentu pasal coz kau bingit pasal kerja, but aku appreciate kau selalu buat aku ketawa and always there for me...*awwwwwwww* Aku tak akan lupakan kau bawak aku jalan dari Outram MRT sampai Funan IT Centre. Thx eh aku serik.!

One more thing, aku mintak maaf pasal aku bawak kau jauh nak pi makan pat Clementi pasal sesungguhnye aku ingat kau tinggal clementi dan yang penting sekali rumah kau sebenarnye pat SIMEI. WAAAAKAKAKAKAAKa.

Last but not least,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAHD..! Semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki..

Sentuhan Kecundangggggg

2008-07-21T13:27:00.000+08:00

Sentuhan Kecundang - Ekamatra

Kita tempuh segala rintangan
Kecundang jua menimpa
Kita telah mencuba segala
Namun tewas akhirnya

Putus tak bisa disambung
Kusut tak terhurai
Hilang tak bisa diganti
Patah kekeringan

Cinta terlarang bagai terbuang
Dalam rimba yang gelap
Dan penuh duri

Mestikah aku meratap
Membinasakan diriku
Atau ku biar saja
Ia berlalu

Sentuhan kali terakhir

Abadi dalam hatiku

Tak dapat ku menghalang
Perpisahan ini

Cucu Atok...

2008-07-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

Some of u might know that i've been staying here at my aunt's place with grandad for the past 7 months plus. Knowing he's a little bit going to be senile, not remembering certain things. Oh, his age is above 80 years old.

So, almost everyday, he will ask me "Kau siapa?"

Takkan cucu atok ni nak tipu, of coz i answered "Ni Liya."

He will say "Betul kau Liya? Apesal macam cina?"

"Ni Liya ke Ida? Liya ye? Cantik ye sekarang. Putih. Cuma kalau pakai celak banyak banyak pat kening tu kasi nampak lebat sikit lagi cantik."

BUT. Just now. Was different. I've got a shock.

"Kau siapa? Liya ke IDa?"

"Liya lah."

He laughs and said "Ye ke Liya? Anak siapa?"

I said, "Anak Seni" (My mum's name is Hasni, so the family called my mum Seni). Bukan Si Anak Seni eh! wakakkaa.

He said "Ek ehhh...cantik nye...sini sekejap..untungnye dapat cucu cantik sekali..sini peluk sikit...cium sikit..." (he kisses me a few times and dun wanna let me go.) Touched my hands...And i kiss his forhead.

And when I was about to go out of the room, he said to me "Sini skejap, kasi pegang *toooot*nye sikit.."

I WAS SHOCKED. Really shocked.

Astaghfirullah 'alazim

2008-07-15T06:35:00.000+08:00

Sungguh rasa mcm nak *toooooooot*

RL..TOLONG JUMPA. Terima Kasih.

Bollywod

2008-07-07T06:12:00.000+08:00

I'm not a Bollywood fan. Not at all. Question me about Bollywood or Hindustan or anything related. I will score 0 marks. Lol.

But. Yours truly is going for Bollywood dance classes every Wednesday!. Its at JJ Salsa Rengue, where my ex dance instructor, Kak Ana aka Mardhiah is working now.

Seriously difficult but exciting.

So. Next nak BELLY DANCING. Amacam?

But I truly miss dancing on stage..

Percaya tak?

2008-06-26T09:51:00.000+08:00

Masih tak percaya........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Huh? biLa? apa date? june? busy!!. *Fikir fikir fikir*

Date? 22June.!

hah! Abang tunang 21st June!

Hmmm. Nak taknak nak tanak. Gamble ahhhhhh. Gian punye pasal. Go!.

Then. Meeting with "Beautiful Strangers."

Next is the Training Schedule. HUH? How many days of training aje ada? Wahh risau. But then, setakat for fun ajer kan so tak apa..

Then kena check mails, belajar lagu tru mp3, lirik print sendiri.

Wah ni namanye independent/independant(mana yang betul lah!)

Carry on with trainings tho some members unable to attend.

Yg tak datang, carik time belajar sendiri. (Betul tak Aeen? DEE? hehehe. Nak backout per?kakaka)

Seriousness? Tak sangat. Stress? Tak sangat. For fun je pe.

Betulll tak bedek. Datang training takda kena marah, tak kena pukol ngan penyapu(hehehe). ada sampai suara serak mcm bapok siam..

Relek ah abih.

On the day itself, bus tak sampai, running out of time, 4 by 4 took cab to the CC.

When semua da sampai, one of the members tak dpt main and the back row was affected and was told to change ragam for intro. part tu stress!

Inside the room, theres another Srikandi group. Dengar dorang nye intro...Aku da serammmm..

Tapi..just for fun je, so take it positively.

Thx to the organisers, that girl can play, everything was back to normal. Alhamdulilah.

Part of us sat in the very first row after performing. Oh. results. Category Individu for Layar Srikandi..Calon calon nya..Alhamdulilah, most of the category kita dapat dicalonkan. Part "Awok2 Terbaik: SERI SURIRAM." Whoa....Tak pikir apa apa teros Lompat n pekik pekik ntah kenapa..nak terjogettttt aku pat situ!!

Best of All, we won 2nd place for Layar Srikandi. Tak sangka. Betul-betul tak sangka.

Kepada Frontmen: Kak cik n Kak Ila. Both of u have great voices! And great job on the day itself!

Percussionnist: Mimah Ibu, Yaty Anak, Yana Gong Canang, Kak Ecah Marakas. Bunyi Beat sedap. Seronok sekali.

Awok2: Kak Aiza, Tina, Dayah, kak Jaja, Kak Siti, Kak Nani, KAK HUDA(Wakakaka), Kak Haizum, Kak Lin, Dee, Kak Rin, Aeen and Mamai(almost can't play.)

Winning any award was something we did not hope, whats more Winning a place, its something we could never think of, coz many times were mentioned, just for fun. We faced everything "dengan penuh ketabahan."

To the 2 "Leads," Kak Sue and not forgetting Kak Ina also..

Thx for being there to help all of us,the effort, to point out our mistakes and to give comments.

Last but not least, thanx for making this "group project" a success, the trainings we went through, the heart and soul to play for the comp and of course, the patience.

Thnx for the wonderful memories Putri+Adiratna=Seri Suriram..we've achieved to get Awok2 Terbaik and 2nd placing, even without hope..

15-06-08 AyieYanie Engagement

2008-06-19T03:53:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to both of u!

Unfortunately, I didn't get to go to Ayie's place coz I was dolling Yanie up.

Pinggang dan punggungku sakit coz the day before was doing make up for the performers.

Tension beb coz lack of time..! Lack of time = kanchiong!

Anyway, some pics for viewing. Others will be uploaded soon.

Grabbed from Siti's.

Sibuk je....Busybody

2008-06-02T09:40:00.000+08:00

Sibuk lah.

Well.

My bro is outstation to East Timor for work and now I have to settle for his engagement preparation without him. He will be back 4 days before his Engagement day.

Great.

I thought I could just get excited and work with him to prepare for his day and now he is outstation. Aiyooyooo. So i need to liase with his future fiancee and camnerrrr nii?

Of coz there is back up si Cacat twin tu...but without my bro, my cacat twin will have to put in more effort. LOL.

Any sponsors? WAKAKAKAKA.

Aku tetap excited k.

Pak Bing Bing Tak Deng Deng

2008-05-22T03:56:00.000+08:00

I assumed that all of u noe wat the title above means.

Its about less than 3 weeks away from the upcoming Pak Bing Bing and I am all excited..!

So, for all the GOLDilocks-to-be for that day, semua dah dapat baju ke belum..?Dah amik leave ke belum? Dah siap sedia untuk tangkap GLAMZ depan camera yg akan ada di seluruh alam? wakakakakaa.

Oh man. Its all about the cousins and aunts and uncles when get together. And I so miss the childhood days we used to have. I'm glad theres no hate-hate to the max relationship between all. I wonder how come we don't have the time for hangouts and lepaks session. Hmmm. Amacam sedaras this time dangdut kapa? WAKAKAAKA.

Rite.

Then for the next one. I dun have to say. I'm starting to get myself back in that activity. Not yet for the dancing though.

But that martial art that we are supposed to attend, does not happen though enrolment have been confirmed by u. But u went away. Why must u say that u are afraid that I cant make it when you are the one who recommended that to me. I'm prepared to learn something new but u said that the thing is not for me. Tak paham aku. Contradicting la kan.

Ok back to work. And I must say this. SA1 period is real hell.

Dinamis Seni 2008 - Mendongak Ke Langit

2008-05-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

Ngee Ann Polytechnic

DINAMIS SENI '08
-Mendongak Ke Langit-
walau sejengkal, segunung disemai

TIKET: $6
14TH JUNE 2008, ~~6.30PM~~
NOW @ A NEW TIME SLOT 8PM
CULTURAL THEATRE, LT 26 @ NP

Ngee Ann Polytechnic's very own Malay Cultural Club; XPDTari (dance), SriNadi (drama), Cendekiawan (language) and Paduka & Adiratna (dikir barat) brings to you 'Mendongak Ke Langit: walau sejengkal, segunung disemai'. A production that evolves around a
Malay boy growing up in a conventional Malay community of Singapore in the 1960s. Bearing his mother’s words of wisdom in mind, we see not only the choices he made but also the ups and downs faced by the Malay society in a more artistic way yet comprehensible for the general audience.

We hope that with this production, we will be able to promote greater awareness of the Malay culture, thus instilling social and moral values for youths like us to be a more active and responsible
individual towards the community and also to our own elderly family members.

COME ON! Gather your families and friends and experience the promising and colourful performances that's filled with artistic value.

Who's invited? ALL OF YOU!!!

BOOK YOUR TICKETS NOW!

For sale of tickets and general enquiries, please contact Fahmi Reza @ 91110876 or Diana @ 97814665.

Kelakar GILAAAA Mesti share ni..

2008-05-14T04:50:00.000+08:00

Ok lah, its quite tak senonoh but I laughed kuat kuat pat opis ni..

Satu hari si cucu pulang ke rumah daripada bermain-main lalu bertanyalah kepada datuknya...

Cucu: 'Tok, tadi Dol cakap pelir.... Pelir tu apa tok?.'
Terkejut datuknya. Tapi dengan selambanya dia berkata...

Datuk: 'Pelir tu songkoklah, macam atuk pakai nih'
Cucu: 'OOoooo macam tu..' kata si cucu.

Pada hari lain pula si cucu bertanya lagi.

Cucu: 'Tok, tadi Minah sebut pantat.. apa ke bendanya tu tok?'
Terkejut bukan kepalang datuknya. Tapi dengan selambanya jugak
dia menjawab..
Datuk: 'Alah...itu kain..yang emak kau pakai tu.'

Satu hari yang lain pula si cucu bertanya lagi...

Cucu: 'Tok, melancap tu apa?'
Si datuk malas nak melayan lalu dikatakannya melancap tu makan nasi.

Akhirnya si cucu bertanya lagi .

Cucu: 'Tok, memantat tu apa?'

Datuk: '..Alaah kau n! i banyak sangat bertanya..memantat tu macam ayah dan mak kaulah... kerjanya menoreh.'

Suatu hari yang panas datanglah Tok Penghulu berkunjung ke rumah kanak-kanak tu..selepas diberi salam beberapa kali lalu dijawap oleh kanak-kanak tu..

Tok Penghulu: 'Datuk kau ada?'

Cucu: 'Tak ada Tok Penghulu. Dia pergi kedai.. Naiklah Tok Penghulu.'

Tok penghulu pun naik sambil mengipas-ngipas dengan songkoknya.

Lalu berkata budak itu...
Cucu: 'Tok Penghulu, kalau panas, sangkutlah pelir tu kat dinding'.

Terperanjat katak si Tok Penghulu tu...

Tok Penghulu: 'Ehhh mana abang kau? '

Cucu: 'Ada kat dapur tengah melancap'

Tok Penghulu: '... Kakak kau?'

Cucu: '..ada kat sungai tengah basuh pantat..banyak pantat dia kena basuh.'

Tok Penghulu: 'Mak ayah kau?

Cucu: 'EEEh Tok Penghulu nih..., kan hari ni tak ujan.....memantatlah mereka.'

Lalu Tok Penghulu pun pengsan.

Suka korang eh baca citer gini....

I don't know

2008-05-14T03:31:00.000+08:00

Mister,

I dunnoe what bring u to approach me again. Ok, maybe just asking hows life. Oh well. But wats the purpose of saying things like dat? I thought u did say, things will never be the same again. Don't u remember. Yes I do have some "data" lost in my mind but if I could remember, then I remember. If i couldnt remember, then i dun bother to stand up.

I accept ur apology but I dun understand why whould u say that I betrayed after all the things happened to me AFTER our relationship. I hope u dun make me feel even more worse by saying all that..coz I am already suffering and all I can think of is to get myself TREATED eventhough it is not cheap.

Aiyok.

Next Step

2008-05-07T05:40:00.000+08:00

I wonder when a person move on to the next step or stage of anything, why would they change? Some changed for the better, but some changed to make situation worst. Such that they actually point out others mistakes without knowing that they are no better themselves. LOL. And surprisingly, some are being so contradicting..! Kutuk orang lain tapi diri sendiri tu tak betul...~

Why ah?

But to say, I am not perfect myself. kekekekeke.

P Ramlee The Musical..

2008-05-02T08:23:00.000+08:00

I really want to watch this..

REALLY..

Anybody........????!?!?!?!?!

Happy 4th Birthday A!!!!

2008-05-02T03:12:00.000+08:00

Belated Belated.

Kalimah Secebiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis.............

SentuhaAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAnnnn...~

Things about sisters...

2008-04-22T18:26:00.000+08:00

I read my youngest sis blog, on 31st March Entry..I missed that entry...Only today i read it..

And

Yours Truly CRIED. OMG.

http://atiez-aties.blogspot.com/2008_03_01_archive.html

Please refer to the poster

2008-04-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, Please read the following notice in the poster....

Excited and Happy

2008-03-26T07:09:00.000+08:00

Coz.

going out with

My dad and my sisters tmrow

After so long lah.

Coz.

Getting sometinggg BBIIIIGGGG that i've been longing for....

So...

This time...

"Dapurku sentiasa hangat."

6 days to go..

Set Me free please

2008-03-19T14:43:00.000+08:00

Pardon on my absences. I am fine, but real down with lots of issues. Oh well what is life without problems rite? So i am going to make myself absent from EVERYTHING. and i mean EVERY SINGLE THING. I am NOT going to involve in ANYTHING AT ALL, from now onwards and for the next few months i tink.

Yes I miss dancing, dikir and all activities that i used to get involved in. But what other choice do i have? Am having some mental blockage which i need to clear up. Really sorry for MIA or not involving in anything. So after today, gonna apologise to respective individuals, i need to be set free. REALLY free.

May see I am Ok, yes, of course I shouldnt be telling EVERY single person what my prob is rite?

Little did I know that it is affecting my work as well. Get pressurised when told what to do, but realised have not been doing my things properly.

So again, I need to be set free. Real free, i need all myself back, my confidence, my life, my EVERYTHING.

But please eh dear colleagues, dun get too high on my brownies and nutella muffins. Hahaha. Tak boleh lah hari hari bawak kan..nanti jelak da tak laku.. :-P
Will make some other things next time Ok?

Exactly

2008-03-13T09:34:00.000+08:00

Ahakz! Exact feelings.

Adoi..~

2008-03-11T17:08:00.000+08:00

Nih lagu nih tak pernah dengar nih...

Tak mau nanis taoooo...

Apa nak jadi..

2008-03-07T18:29:00.000+08:00

Satu cakap "I'm not going back to office anymore until they give me school to do Roving TA. U hurt me deep."

Lagi satu cakap "aku tanak gi kerja lagi uh...aku nak gila uh..aku da buat salah pat dia...."

(Dia macam 4 bulan yg lalu..takda arah tujuan lansung..)

All this is because of just talking to a technician at work. Yours truly admit she doesnt have initiative.

"I tak suka orang bodoh."

Yes I cannot be stupid.

After so much of apologizing everything went ok..

On top of that..he reads what i actually done...

Nah. Takmu complain. Dah reveal. Fidie Mirana Putra ok?

Commitments

2008-03-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

What would u say. If I have to let go of something that I would want to achieve but. time constraints. not to say i don't want to strive but i need my rest time too. if i continue. i might break myself into pieces anytime. coz it doesnt involve myself physically. but. also mentally and emotionally.
its not that i am not willing. but. i want to see outside life too.

:(

So near yet so far

2008-03-01T16:27:00.000+08:00

So near yet so far..

I see the precious one almost everyday at work..but communicate through sms or msn..tho we are physically in the same office..Lol. But...am i revealing who? I dun tink so? partially? well..maybe..

Keganasan kaki gajah

2008-02-19T03:16:00.000+08:00

Semalam.
Pagi pagi.
Jam 6.55am.
Turun bus.
Jalan menuju ke opis. Pastu. KETOPRAK. Alak. Kasut putus. Bukan kasut lah, mcm low wedge gitu. Munga2 cream and red. Yg beli pat KL last year june. heart pain man. Terpaksa lah all the way satu kaki kaki ayam sampai ke opis.

Ni menandakan. yg aku bole beli kasut lagi. HARHARHARHAR.
Well, nothing new kan? BUT STILLL...my fav shoe, coz its comfortable. aiyak....~

10months working here, 4 shoes down. LOL.

I'm sorry Baby Sister..

2008-02-08T16:26:00.000+08:00

Dear Baby Sister,

U dun noe how bad i feel for treating u this way. I may not know wat u r going through, but i knw u want to have some fun. Indeed we succesfully went to Perth in march 2006. But i know its not enough.

And i know its good to hear the approval from Dad that he allowed us to go to KL with my colleagues. But however, its being cancelled due to some reasons and i know u are totally broken coz u wanted to go there with me so badly and i've promised to go to Berjaya times square wif u. its a matter of having fun and spend some time together.

And now, the KL trip is cancelled, so u decided to follow aunt and twins to balik kampung, But i decided not to follow. i've received ur sms all the way from kampung, saying: "Bring me hm pls! i wanna go hm! boring. takda kawan."

Me: Aiyo..how to?

Baby sister: Book aku keretapi ke seremban.

Me: aku tak reti lah...haiz..kalau tahu aku ikot...sori..:(

I'm very very sori..I should have follow. I hate to see u like that..I may not show my concern coz i dun want u to know that i care and i actualy want to know wats going on..I know u r lost..After SHE'S gone, u hav no one to turn to..I am aware that I need to be by ur side but sometiimes i failed to do so... i'm very very sori...

From now onwards, U will be my commitment...

If my dad knows i cry this bad because of that, he would say I am crazy. Coz he dun understand.

Boredom

2008-02-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

Its my decision. I changed my mind not to folow to balik kampung. And i've got to pay back the boredom. and oh i feel bad that i dont help bibik with the house. and i am not doing anything at all.

boleh jadik gila.....haiya...how to stop tinkingggg..~

Contradicting..............................

2008-02-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

How to understand.

"What if same things happened again.?" and the next time he said,

"Think about it ah, things wouldnt be the same."

I'm confused. How would we want things to be the same when we dun want the same thing to happen again?? Ishk.

N. ppl. i will eat ok. during lunch. waiting for u all to suap la ekceli. heee.

Chances and Offers

2008-02-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah, Great offers.. No publicity but it was an approach through that very wedding..~

Hmmmmm.

But what matters the most...LOCATION...!!!!

$Great offer$

Hehehehe.

Happy 21st Birthday Seth

2008-02-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

beb, Happy 21st birthday to u...Yaaaa u look so much better with ur hair now then before la okehhh!!

Breathe

2008-01-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

I need to breathe. Gimme a break...!!! My goodness, whats happening around and why there are such people..

OMG. How do these ppl live? LIVING IN DENIAL..they refused to let out what are they feeling, they refused to EXPOSE THEIR OWN IDENTITY, they LOVE PRETENDING, they certainly LOVE TO POINT OUT OTHERS' MISTAKES, they TRY SO HARD TO BE SOMEBODY ELSE TO IMPRESS and so on. I'm lucky enough that I watch episodes here and there without getting involved. Coz i have my own feelings and my own heart to attend to. Selfish? Yes. I admit. No, I mean, I have to. Sometimes we've tried our very very very best to give our all to make things work out, but yes we sometimes fail but I personally feel that chances should be there to prove that u r giving your all...BUT sometimes people just chose to ignore..

And..what happen if u come across a name that U CAN NEVER THINK OF....???

"Takdir Illahi"

Hee. Apa lak ni

2008-01-29T12:59:00.000+08:00

"TIDUR TAK LENA MANDI BERJAM TAK BASAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH"

Just met my doctor just now, and he did mentioned about "not to think about bla bla bla and got to MOVE ON, YOU KNOW, MOOOOVE OONNN..keep ur life contented with things that make u happy especially after work."
and he gave me pills again. haiyak.

Ishk. MOVE ON. DREAM ON. haaahaa.

OMG OMG OMG

2008-01-24T16:38:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG.

HELPPP. NYAHHHHH.... MANA KORANGGGG..

DA BANJIR NI...............................TOLONG...LEMASSSS...

BYE. nak terjun katil.

Fugly

2008-01-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

Burp...

Why?

Coz Today i feel like burping! heee. No. I dun burp today.

The babies happily ngintip below my dress i'm wearing and laugh laugh. GATAL NYe BABIES!!! And they singgg *Adu du du du du HHAAAAIII* no. more sounds like *akuh kuh kuh kuh kuh hhhaaaaaiii*

Cacat twin says....my face is becoming smaller and smaller..n some other stuff also...look like ugly model wannabe..and when she says dat..i tink back..i know my jendul n nose n mouth wont get any smaller...so...which makes my jendul nose n mouth will be more outstanding...eeeeeeewwww!!!

who says i am not eating n who says i am dieting. I eat like normal. I dun believe in dieting.

And ppl ask why and how i am like dis. - Simple. I DUNO!!! haaahaaahaaa. Or maybe.... try to be in my shoes then u wil uderstand y. N i dun tink they wud want to go tru wat i went tru n stil going tru now. hur hur hur hur.

NYAHHH. Waffle eksrimmm!!!! *tanak layan orang nak Waffle Dreams....*

kekeke

Appreciate

2008-01-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

I wonder whats the reason for a person who wouldnt want to appreciate the effort from another person.

Why eh?

Coz purposely want to hurt the other party? Or wat?

And another thing..

Is it good being pampered all the time, being spoon feed and expect good things to come or get good help without learning from the start? Seronok perasaan macam tu?

M.E.R.E.N.G

2008-01-18T10:32:00.000+08:00

Reason: Tak tidur sangat
Reason: Tak tahu kenapa

Sakit kepala. Gara Gara minum "Ribena Grape Juice." Juice tulen tau. Tapi sesungguhnye,,,Juice tulen dari buah ribena grapes yg dah busuk. Thanx la uncle..punya tak sedap k..cawan sebesar alam..

Kan sekarang da mereng. k. MERENG. read again, MMMEEERRREEEENNNNGGG. Tapi nanti ada company dinner plak...Last week Company Lunch, this week company dinner, next week company supper kot...lol..LAME la k. Naik seronok plak dapat makan makan free ginik. kekekekee.

And tomorrow early afternoon will be meeting my cuzzies! Then evening i'm free to date anyone...wakakaka.

The feelings..

2008-01-15T16:49:00.000+08:00

To talk about wat ur big girl is going through is not easy..

Yes many times ur big girl refused to eat or do anything when u asked her to..but gez u noe she's not OK..

Yes maybe u want to know whats going on but dun think u would understand coz ur big girl wouldnt want u know..coz ur big girl have been warned by u that if u were get to noe who are her heatbreakers, u wud smack them to death. lol.

Yes u want the best for ur big girl but ur big girl here doesn't know how to fight and keeps on giving up and giving in..

hmmmmm....

Rinduu

2008-01-13T10:26:00.000+08:00

I miss my frens!! NYAH NYAH SEMUA...BILA NAK GI KARAOKE LAGIIIKKKK.....????

Ahakz~

2008-01-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

K ppl, please tahan......tahan....tahan mulut k..sekarang...tutup mulut dengan tangan....dan tengok gambar yg ada ni k...

Do Relationships REALLY Fail?

2008-01-09T02:16:00.000+08:00

Something I've Read from

Do Relationships Really FAIL? Jan 7, '08 10:19 PM
for everyone
When we begin our journey with the woman we’ve have attracted into our lives, there is no doubt we have quite a good pre-conceived idea of what we expect our relationship with this person to be in the future.

We all may have the fantasy of the ultimate passionate long term relationship where you visualize the both of you rolling around over the sand, travelling or cruising the globe together……

I am sure that not any one of us will set out from the start that once they have attracted their perfect intimate partner, they are looking forward to a life of misery, poverty and ill-health. I know that was a bit too extreme, (I even felt like crap writing about it), just the thought of that scared me!

I have come to the realization that relationships don’t really fail, WE as humans do. Now is the time to take back that responsibility and things will change.

When we first start dating someone, our bodies release hormones which cause us to want to always be with that person, to always think about them day and night and even staying up all night wanting to talk to them. Yes men, talk to them. You didn’t hear wrong.

Why then, a couple of years down the track do all those above mentioned feelings grinds to a halt? Because the amount of these hormones released are now not only no longer released, but the have changed to become to ‘lets slow down and have a family hormones’.

BUT, we should not take this for granted and ‘blame’ it all on the hormones. We must not just pass the buck and just blame it on the hormonal change which I’m sure you’re probably thinking of right now right?

We don’t have to let the hormones ruin the fun. I believe if you keep at it, have fun, keep your relationship interesting and never take your partner for granted by continuing to keep doing the small things, your relationship will be always as passionate as ever.

Why relationships break down is because we as the human species always put blame on the other party, saying they didn’t give me this so I won’t give abck and so on.

Here’s the secret to ultimate relationship success; ssshhhhh, don’t’ tell anyone alright……..

Don’t ever slack off from doing all the little things you once did for this person you love. If you wanna get a lot back, you gotta give even more and not stop giving. It will be worth it in the end. Love, humor, attention, fun, passion is not like money which you will have less once you give out. In fact, it’s totally the OPPOSITE. The more you give out, the MORE you get back, not just from your partner, but from the feeling of satisfaction and love within yourself.

This truly is frame of mind. Try it, and see for yourself. I’ll bet you’ll have so much passion again you’ll wonder, crap, why could I have lost it in the first place when it was always inside of me to give out???

In the mean time, Good Luck!

Sleep

2008-01-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep. Oh gosh. eversince it happened, its so difficult to sleep!!!! ARGH. THis month shift is 7am, how can u expect me to wake up at 4.30am when i cant even sleep!!!! the medication that i will be having till february does not help ah..it makes no different n i dun want to depend on it...coz it will mutate and when the body get used to it..it will be useless..

*Be strong. Allah will always be there..*

And....Waffle Ice cream sounds good...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Amboi..~ Classic GiLa

2008-01-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

Sori ah, sesugguhnye lagu memang feeling beb...